it's not green, it's jealousy

Underneath the Christmas lights

Strung up like me, with hope too high

Oddly festive under late summer's sky

Harhly lit to hide the lie

Every other one burnt and broken

So much like my lost and found emotions

Dangled high like the games you play

Tokens, out of reach, always in motion

Those lights are the only stars I see

It's been some time since I could be

In a place where I could see the sky

without these rainy tears of mine

And all alone you stand so near

and far away, both killing me

There's a stale old beer in my right hand

and a stale old heart inside this man

The smoke that lingers on the air

Stops my breath and blurs my eyes

Tomorrow I'll blame today's short sight

On all those cigarettes you smoked tonight

That green monster painted on the wall

Laughs and points because she knows

Her sister lurking deep inside

Would tell the truth I've tried to hide

The only thing between us now

A console and the radio

And although night has fallen down

I still can't find your hand to hold

The only thing between us now

Are breaklights and this cold gray stone

I'll drive away from words unsaid

My hope too high, and your love dead.